Dream Life

                                You have to chase the things that ignite you. You have to do the things that bring you joy. You have to surround yourself with the people who bring you back home to yourself, with the people who respect you and  embrace you in ways that make you feel like you are worthy and accepted  and loved. You have to do the work to heal yourself, even when it hurts especially when it hurts, so that you do not continue to approach your life within the boundary of what is heavy within you. You have to put  yourself out there, and you cannot worry about what other people think,  you cannot rob yourself of experience or happiness or inspiration because  you are scared of how you will be perceived. You have to unapologetic in  the way that you exist here. You have to believe that your ideas, and your  hope, and your being, deserve to take up space. You have ...

                            No one ever really understands or tries to understand you. It was always people yelling out their opinions and voicing their advices,  which eventually led you to realize that people weren't really compassionate towards you. No one ever really hears what you say, or they never insist on knowing what you were actually feeling; it was always them just yelling out their opinions at you. Maybe this is how life is, and these are the things that actually make you understand how important it is to find your own self, be your own comfort person, best friend, healer and be all you want other people to be for you. No one is going to ask you what made you to  that , what made you react like that, why did you do  that, and most importantly, how do you feel. People are just there, not wanting to go into the depths of what you feel or how you feel, but they'll always be opinionated with wh...

                                You don't need grand gestures or far-off destinations to add a bit of magic to your everyday life. Sometimes, it's about seeing the beauty in the simple, the wonder in the ordinary. It's about savoring the moments you might otherwise overlook, and finding joy in the smallest of things. Start with how you greet the day. Let the morning light be more than just the signal to start your routine-let it be a moment to pause and feel gratitude for a new beginning. Sip your coffee or tea slowly, letting its warmth fill you up, savoring each sip like its a tiny luxury. Notice the world around you. The flowers blooming on your walk, the patterns of light and shadow dancing on the walls, the laughter of strangers passing by. These are all little gifts waiting to be unwrapped, each one a reminder that life is filled with moments of quiet beauty, if only we choose to see them. Treat the ev...

  There comes a time in life where you come across a person that is a deep breath personified. Someone who knows what you're thinking simply by the look in your eyes. Someone you can laugh until you cry with. Someone you can pour your heart out to and you know they'll hold it gently and without judgement. Someone who knows how to melt away your stress. Someone wo challenges  you yet handles you with care. Someone who reminds you of your strength at your weakest points and you believe them. Someone who celebrates you and sings your praises, even when you're not around.                                  Someone who softens your heart when things get tough, but would go to war for you in a heartbeat. Someone who you can share your stories with, deepening your connection with every page. Someone who would never allow you to settle because their faith in you is unwavering. Someone you feel you've kn...

                                          Everything. Your highs. Your lows. Your happiest moments and the most painful ones. Your failures and  your success. Your losses and your gains. Just  remember-people can't come in and out of your life for no reason. The lessons you learn and the growth that you experience is never spontaneous. It's always meant to be. There's a higher purpose. A goal. A final destination; or a peal in your journey that you will have no idea of until you reach it. But for that- you need to climb the mountain. For that -you need to look for a deeper meaning . For that you need to pay attention to everything and everyone around you, especially those that love you and leave you. There are some lessons that only pain can bring out. There are some lessons that the biggest joys of your life will reveal to you. And there are some lessons that you never kne...

                                   The truth is, life will amaze you in the most stunning ways, and it will also break  your heart. Life will gift you the kinds of lessons that grow you and build you and help for you to bloom into the person you have always hoped to be, but it will also carry within it the kinds of losses that stay with you, that change you and mold you in uncomfortable ways. Life will demand for you to do the work, for you to understand  yourself, for you to heal even when it hurts. For you to be brave, for you to fight for yourself. At the end of the day, bravery isn't a battlefield. It isn't fast cars, or stunned risk. Bravery is the quietest thing you will ever know. Bravery is getting up in the morning  when your bones are heavy and heart does not want the light to crack within it. Bravery is leaning into what aches, it is looking it in the face, giving it a nam...

 I want you to know what it feels like to be in love with the life that you are living. I want you to know what it feel like to wake up in the morning and be grateful for another day, every day. I want you to have all of the energy you need to live the life you want to live. I don't want you to be scared of the unknown--I want you to see the unknown as a beautiful puzzle that you will be able to build on your own. You are capable of building your dream life--one that you look back on in the future and are completely in awe of. I don't want you to look back and regret not making the move you doubted you could do. You can do  anything. Start by believing in what you don't believe you are capable of. Start by letting go of the strings attached to your past. Start slowly. It won't happen all at once but it will happen as it needs to. Please, don't doubt yourself and remember you don't need anyone else to believe in you for your dreams to come true. You deserve to be...

                                                     Release me From the prison, I've created, I wasn't forced to participate I entered of my own free will, But little did I know, How my life would go I've been stumbling uphill, Unable to find self-control, I swallow poison, And I know, I'm slowly killing myself, There's no one to blame, I look in the mirror, I am ashamed of my reflection, I want to explain, Everything I've done, My every wrong, I need to tell someone, But no one cares, They're too scared, I will outburst and swear, Here I am, At the doctors, Filling out a questionnaire, My last hope, Such despair, Asking for help, Release me, Please.

  Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy. Less me. Because I didn't want to be a burden. I didn't want to be too much or push people away. I wanted  people to like me. I wanted to be cared for and valued. I wanted to be wanted. So for years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making other people happy. And for years, I suffered. But I'm tired of suffering, and I'm done shrinking. It's not my job to change who I am in order to become someone else's ides of a worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not because other people think I am, but because I exist, and therefore I matter. My thoughts matter. My feelings matter. My voice matters. And with or without anyone's permission or approval, I will continue to be who I am and speak my truth. Even if it makes people angry. Even if it makes them uncomfortable. Even if they choose to leave. I choose honor my feelings. I...

                                       I hope you know that you are deserving of everything you want in life. You deserve to fall in love with some- one who cares for you in the softest way, someone who drives you and believes in you and is always in your corner -- not just when it easy, but when it is  hard, too. You deserve to be that person for yourself as well. You deserve to be surrounded by people who grow your mind, people who make you better because  they push you to be better. You deserve that anything is  possible, the kind that empowers your voice and your ideas and your capacity to seek out the things that you desire. You deserve moments of pure and intense hap- piness, the kind that make you feel your heart beating against your chest, the kind that dizzy you and make you realize that everything will be okay. Because it will be. It will be. You deserve to be cho...

                                    Instead of focusing on how far you still have to go, take some time today to remind yourself of how far you've already come. Yes, you might still be struggling. And yes, you may still have some distance to cover, but those things don't discount the progress you've already made. Healing takes time. Life takes time. It's not a process that can be rushed. You'll get there when you get there. And you're allowed to  give yourself that time. Beating yourself up for not being further along does absolutely nothing to help get you closer to where you want to be. It makes you feel inadequate and ashamed, and it  keeps you stuck. So stop fixating on how much farther you need to go and start acknowledging how incredible it is that you've gotten as far as you have. That despite how difficult this path has been, you haven't given up. That even though you've felt hope...

                                                     So figure out what you most need to heal within your- self by seeing what you most want to change in others. Doing so will free you in a way you can't imagine. Doing so is necessary piece of the life-you-want puzzle, because all the energy you're using trying to avoid, deflect, delude your way into not acknowledging what you need to heal/change/deal is being wasted, at best, and is actually actively keeping you from the life you want, at worst. What is worth suffering for? Everything is hard in some way. It's hard to be in the wrong relationship. It's hard to be in the right one. It's hard to be broke and miserable, it's hard to achieve your dreams. It's hard to be stuck in the middle, not really feeling anything at all. Everything is hard, but you choose your hard. You choose what's worth it. You don'...

  Thinking deeply enough to understand the real point. It's not to discover what you'd actually do if you didn't have to worry about money, it's about the  essence of what you'd do and how you can incorporate  that into your everyday life. Would you vacation, would you keep your current job? It just goes to show  you whether you value relaxation or accomplishments or whatever else, and understanding what you value is  crucial to understanding who you are.   Take photos to remember happy moments, not prove  that you looked good or did something cool. Make a special album on your phone just for " happy moments." When you feel good or are enjoying yourself or have  some kind of revelation, just take a photo of  whatever's in front of you ( however unworthy of  Instagram it is). When you look back at these seemingly random snapshots, you'll experience those feelings all over again. You'll see, by contrast, the emotional difference between ca...

                                                                                  The sky is so tragically beautiful It is the graveyard of stars; It doesn't hurt but it leaves the scars, Not just on mind but the whole human soul Not just it control, but the heart that it stole. Maybe that's what life has to  give, But this should not stop you to relive! Cause without pain, How would you know joy; It builds you up and just believe, that it does not destroy. All you need to have is faith, Cause once it was said that life is 'fickle finger of fate', Believe in yourself because you yourself are your true mate.

                                                           When you can't sleep, what do you do? Just fret and worry, toss and stew? That is a foolish thing to do! It only makes blue things more blue. Why don't you lie and just relax? Forget about your income tax! Then jump aboard your memory ship And , back to childhood, take a trip. Play once again the ages you played; That causes fret and fume to fade. The swimming hole, the rippling brook, The funny story, cowboy book; The fun you had, while just a boy, Will prove that life has lot of joy. Go tramp the field and woods again Get lost once more in drenching rain. Remember, when the bull chased you, The fence you had to struggle through. Or think of dolls that made you glad And how you loved the neighbor's lad. Go back to school or Sunday school The pranks you played; the Golden Rule. Rep...

                                                The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearances, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company- a church- home. The  remarkable thing is we have choice  every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for the  day. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is  attitude- I am convinced that life is  10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you-we are in charge of our attitudes.

                                    Sometimes i feel like i am simply being 'passed into different hands. We make homes out of people, only to pack up our things and move and move and move. there is a lot of myself still residing in cardboard boxes. i am too scared to find a place for it. i hover at your doorstep. you look like exactly where i need to be right now. but i've got a pocket full of old keys to remind me to never overstay my welcome. invite me in anyway. there is something about you that makes me want more than anything to give all this another try.

                                           I want your body pressed up against my heart. I want your hands spreading my thoughts, Lingering over the curves of my passions, gripping my hopes, stroking my opinions, and cupping my desires. I want your soul breathing heavily against my collarbones. I want your thoughts nibbling on my ears, your passions pressed against my lips, your hopes naked on my skin, your opinions hard under my hands and your desires... I want your desires letting out soft little moans against my soul. I want you.

                                         isn't life such a funny thing? at any given moment, we could get everything we've wanted, or have it all taken away. at any second in time, we could make the best decision of our lives or the worst. don't you think life is the most fragile and frightening thing? doesn't it make you want to hold on with both hands and  never let go?

                                           i know now that this is how it works you don't get to keep everyone in your life forever there are some people that are just meant to be a sunrise for you a light to pull you out of darkness there are friends, lovers, relationships that are seasonal and no matter how deep of a conversation you had with that person at 2 am no matter how deep of a conversation you had with that person at 2 am no matter how much you shared your heart even if you can still draw the lines of their smile like the map of a too familiar road in the back of your mind there almost always comes a time to move on a time to let go and regardless of the letting go i just wanted you to know you're always going to feel a little bit like home to me no matter how temporary it is still beautiful that i got to call so many hearts my home