Dream Life

                                                     So figure out what you most need to heal within your- self by seeing what you most want to change in others. Doing so will free you in a way you can't imagine. Doing so is necessary piece of the life-you-want puzzle, because all the energy you're using trying to avoid, deflect, delude your way into not acknowledging what you need to heal/change/deal is being wasted, at best, and is actually actively keeping you from the life you want, at worst. What is worth suffering for? Everything is hard in some way. It's hard to be in the wrong relationship. It's hard to be in the right one. It's hard to be broke and miserable, it's hard to achieve your dreams. It's hard to be stuck in the middle, not really feeling anything at all. Everything is hard, but you choose your hard. You choose what's worth it. You don'...

                                          You're going to realize it one day- that happiness was never about  your job, or your degree, or being in  a relationship. Happiness was never  about following in the footsteps of all of those who came before you, it was never about being like the others. One day, you're going to see it- that happiness was always about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your heart and following it wherever it chose to go. Happiness was always  about being kinder to yourself, it was always about embracing the person you were becoming . One day, you will understand. That happiness was always  about learning how to live with yourself, that happiness was never in the hands of other people. It was always about you. It was  always about you.

                                                   You're going to realize it one day- that happiness was never about your job, or your degree, or being in  a relationship. Happiness was never about being like the others. One day, you're going to see it- that happiness was always about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your  heart and following it wherever it chose to go. Happiness was always about being kinder to yourself, it was always about embracing the person you were becoming. One day, you will understand. That happiness was always about learning how to live with yourself, that happiness was never  in the hands of other people. It was always about you. It was  always about you.

                                               Either peace or happiness, let it enfold you When I was a young girl I felt these things were dumb, unsophisticated. I had bad blood, a twisted mind, a precarious upbringing I was hard as granite, I  leered at the sun. I trusted no woman and especially no man. I was living a hell in amm rooms, I broke things, smashed things, walked through glass, cursed. I challenged evrything, was continually being evicted , jailed , in and  out of fights, in and out of my mind. men were something to screw and rail at , I had no female friends. I changed jobs and cities, I hated holidays, babies, history, newspapers, museums, grandmothers, marriage, movies, spiders, garbagemen, english accents, spain, france, italy, walnuts and the colos orange. algebra angred me, opera sickened me, charlie chaplin was a fake and flowers were fo...

                                                        They thought she was delicate Like a pretty, little flower But she is so much more than that She holds extraordinary power They thought they could crush her Like a daisy in their hands Yet there is something about her That they do not understand she is wildflower The type you cannot tame The girl who brings the sun There is venom in her blood and danger in her eyes But she hides her power well You couldn't find it if you tried They did not believe in her Because they thought she was weak But she was not the flower  She was the snake underneath

                                                i looked over at you, wondering how i could begin to describe you. but my smile was so consuming that all i could see were the tops of my cheeks. and the fact that you could literally blind me with happiness was a perfect representation of the kind of effect you have on people.

                                                You have to chase the things that ignite you. You have to do the things that bring you joy. You have to surround yourself with the people who bring you back home to yourself, with the people who respect you and embrace you in ways that make you feel like you are worthy and accepted and loved . You have to do the work to heal yourself, even when it hurts- especially when it hurts, so that you do not continue to approach your life within the boundary of what is heavy within you. You have to put yourself out there, and you cannot worry about what other people think, you cannot rob yourself of experience or happiness or inspiration because you are scared of how you will be perceived . You have to be believe that your ideas, and your hope, and your being , deserve to take up space. You have to believe that you have purpose. Be...

                                             I hope you find what you're looking for out there. I hope you find the kind of happiness that exists on your own terms. I hope you truly take the time to figure out what moves you, what encourages your soul, what you deeply crave from life, and I hope you have the courage to chase that .  I hope you have the courage to believe that you are deserving of everything you desire, that you are capable and worthy of curating the kind of life for yourself that sparks something within you. You have a fire inside of you- I hope you never let convenience, or comfort , or the easiness of standing still put it out. I hope you show the world what you can do with all of there passion inside of you. I hope you find the kind of love that makes you a softer person. The kind of love that makes you want to be a better man or woman, the kind of ...