Dream Life

                                                    If you feel things deeply, if the world has weathered you, if you are going through something that is  uncomfortable or painful, or hard- you often have to decide between allowing yourself to numb their experience of the world. A lot of human beings tell themselves that it is all too much, that is all too inconvenient, to deal with the depth of their circumstance. And it is often not their fault. In a world that has given us so many ways to kill our pain-- through television, or prescriptions , or the sensationalizing of being cool and favorable over being inquisitive, and authentic, it is almost a  subconscious thing we do. We try to protect ourselves from pain, but if I have learned one thing  this year, it is that pain demands to be felt. It will show up in other ways if we do not deal with...

                                            the sun is setting and i can't see it because the clouds are in the way. but that's okay. you've already shown me the fear of when something beautiful disappears. without a goodbye, without knowing why. i try to see through-to the sun, to you. but you're clouded with pride. you hide until you fade from view. it's true that goodbyes are painful. but now you must explain to my heart why you had to depart and take away your warmth and your light. i fight the darkness every night, and i wish i was brave, but i am afraid that the sun will never rise. it wasn't wise to give you so much power over me. you see, now there's not enough left to generate electricity. and i'm scared and stumbling in the clod but i'm told that my body will adjust. it must. it's just learnt not to trust.