Dream Life

  I lend everone my ear, But nobody my heart, And I sure would like to change that, But I don't know where to start, I smile more to myself, Than the world will ever see, Because the only time my smile is real, Is in my own company, People don't know how I feel, They never even ask, It seems that I have fooled them all, They can't see past my mask, If they were with me late at night, When the world was still asleep, Maybe then I'd let them sort, Through the secrets that I keep, But when I wake at 2am, Nobody is ever there, And I learnt that why I hide my heart, Is because no-one really cares.

                                         If you have a big heart it gets heavy, as if a stone hangs from your chest, that was put there by the people who lied and said they'd give their best. If you have a big heart you'll get tired of all the things you've left unsaid, for there are words you could have spoken that would have filled your heart instead. If you have a big heart you'll feel burdened by all the hopefulness you hold. You'll grow weary of compliance but still do everything you're told. If you have a big heart it gets heavy, and you may feel it weighs a ton. There will be times you feel defeated, but having a big heart means you've won.

                                            the sun is setting and i can't see it because the clouds are in the way. but that's okay. you've already shown me the fear of when something beautiful disappears. without a goodbye, without knowing why. i try to see through-to the sun, to you. but you're clouded with pride. you hide until you fade from view. it's true that goodbyes are painful. but now you must explain to my heart why you had to depart and take away your warmth and your light. i fight the darkness every night, and i wish i was brave, but i am afraid that the sun will never rise. it wasn't wise to give you so much power over me. you see, now there's not enough left to generate electricity. and i'm scared and stumbling in the clod but i'm told that my body will adjust. it must. it's just learnt not to trust.

                           I remember when I met you,      the hands of time stood still;      you and your camera smile---      a flash of something real. We talked until evening.      the moon came out for a while;      the clock resumed its ticking      and my heart was on the dial. The morning came to calm you,      and as far as I can tell----      I will never know another,      who knew me quite so well.