Dream Life

                                                  The healing is not the destruction. It is not the day you know it is finally time to uproot your life. It is not the moment you tell someone they are no longer welcome, it is  not the hours you spend decluttering, it is not the minute you walk away. The healing is how you gradually allow your soul to drip into your days again. It is how you show up more fully now that the debris is cleared, and the roads  are unblocked, and your life is once again renewed and  refreshed and freed. It was never about whether or not you had the courage to light fire to what was, it was  whether or not you were willing to plant a seed in its place, and to grow what was always meant to be.

                                             I'm slowly learning that even if I react, it won't change anything. it won't make people suddenly  love  and respect me, it won't magically change their minds. Sometimes it's better to just let things be, let people go, don't fight for closure, don't ask for explanations, don't chase answers and don't expect people to understand where you're coming from. I'm slowly learning that life is better lived when you don't center it on what's happening around you and center it on what's happening inside you instead. Work on yourself and your inner peace.

  You made me feel human again. Your touch, your laughter, your breath, everything showed me what it is like to be a person: a living. breathing person. You came into my life at a time when I thought everything was against me, everything would kill me. You showed me everything I had  to live and fight for. In that short period I called you mine. You made me feel like there were galaxies in my veins and like the stars made their home in my eyes. I'll forever be grateful to the universe for bringing you to me. and at the same time I'll never  forgive it for taking you away.

                                            It's ok to not have answers. It's ok to not be strong. It's ok to do nothing at all. It's ok, so ok, to be wrong. It's ok to just be you. It's ok to lose a game or fight. It's ok to take a nap. It's ok to cry in bed at night. It's ok to go your own way. It's ok to play for fun. It's ok to fail a test. It's ok to not be number one. It's ok to be alone. It's ok to make a mistake. It's ok to stare out a window. It's ok to need a break. When I was young so long ago here's something I wish I knew- When the world says, Listen to me It's ok to listen to you.