Dream Life

                                     She isn't the easiest girl to love. she has this bad habit of overthinking. She tends to  overreact and she gets a little insecure every once in a while. She'll be needy for your attention. She wants to literally take up all of your time and she'll require a lot of reassurance. She isn't capable of fully trusting you. She doesn't know when to stop fighting with you even if she's wrong. She has no problem pushing you away if she feels like you're close to hurting her. Loving her will stress you out, loving her will make you angry, loving her will break  your heart at times, loving her will test you, loving her will challenge you, and loving her will change you. It may get so demanding that you'll be tempted to walk away, it may get so hard that you'll think about giving up, and it may get so complicated that you won't want to deal with her anymore....

                                                    Before you date me..... You need to understand that I'm damaged. I get triggered easily. I have struggled with things. There are nights when I'm curled up on a ball on the floor and I won't talk to anyone. I'll shut you out. I'm not going to be able to trust you for a while, because everyone has always left, cheated, or chosen someone else. I will need reassurance. I will need you. I will need you to keep choosing me. I'll need you to care when I text you saying I'm getting bad again. I'm a lot, I know this. So before you think I'm always happy, that I'll always be positive, that I'll always be smiling- know the reality before you get involved. Don't enter my life if you can't handle it. Lastly, don't you dare touch my heart if you aren't ready for that.