Dream Life

                                           Honor the little girl inside of you, the little girl that was abused, hurt, abandoned, who felt she was never enough. Let her feel safe, let her  know she is loved, tell her everyday. Make her feel so special, she deserves it, keep her clean and warm and nourish her with the nutritious foods. Let her feel free. Let her embrace the  things she loved doing, skating in the park, jumping on the trampoline, painting, running, swimming, making sandcastles, girly sleepovers, making stories, playing dressup. It might sound silly, it might sound irrelevant but honouring the little kid inside of you is going to bring you so much joy and fulfilment. That little version of you, still exists, and deserves to be honoured. Give yourself the love and care, and joy that was stolen from you as a child.

                                  I can't promise you that dark clouds will never hover over our lives or that the future will bring us many rainbows. I can't promise you that tomorrow will be perfect or that life will be easy. I can promise you my everlasting devotion, my loyalty, my respect, and my unconditional love for a lifetime. I can promise that I'll always be here for you, to listen and to hold your hand, and I'll always do my best to make you happy, and make you feel loved. I can promise that I'll see you through any crisis, and pray with you, dream with you, build with you, and always cheer you on and encourage you. I can promise that I'll willingly be your protector, your advisor, your counselor, your friend, your family, your everything. I promise you.

                                                    Our eyes made love to  each other long beforehand... you were something that felt so new yet so familiar to me, like a place I have never been but somehow never left. I think I have known you my whole life and loved you a while longer.

                                              I'm not perfect, I'm me. I've made bad decisions and wrong choices, but I'm me. I've said the wrong things, I've said the right things, because I'm me. I don't like everything I've done, but I did it because I'm me. I've loved the wrong people and trusted the wrong people and I'm still me. If I had the chance to start again, I wouldn't change a thing. Why? Because I'm me. There are a lot of good things about me, you just need to look past the imperfections to see what's right. If you can't do that then it's your loss.  I'm the best I can be. I am ME.

                                                To have loved and lost To have it took away To have had a love That could not stay To feel so high Then feel so low To have it there And see it go To be so happy you could almost cry To be so sad you could almost die To have been loved  And that love be gone To feel that you just can't go on There's no worse feeling No worse pain The physical ache The emotional drain To have loved and lost There's nothing worse It's feels just like a permanent curse You lose more than a love When it ends you lose your soulmate Your best friend It can't be replaced  It can't be rewound You will stay lost Until your re-found

                                                You have to chase the things that ignite you. You have to do the things that bring you joy. You have to surround yourself with the people who bring you back home to yourself, with the people who respect you and embrace you in ways that make you feel like you are worthy and accepted and loved . You have to do the work to heal yourself, even when it hurts- especially when it hurts, so that you do not continue to approach your life within the boundary of what is heavy within you. You have to put yourself out there, and you cannot worry about what other people think, you cannot rob yourself of experience or happiness or inspiration because you are scared of how you will be perceived . You have to be believe that your ideas, and your hope, and your being , deserve to take up space. You have to believe that you have purpose. Be...