Dream Life

                                                 I once heard someone say, If you don't change you do not grow, But I waved the thought away, For who were they to think they know, I'd always stayed the same, A heart that thrived within the cold, And I had no desire to change, At least that's what I had been told, But deep within my mind, A thought grew slowly, bit by bit, Until I felt trapped in my skin, For it no longer seemed to fit, There's a whole world sitting out there, Changing every single day, That proves it's nothing to be scared of, If you do it the right way, For a day afraid to turn to night, Will miss the silver moon, And a flower that refuses change, Will never get to bloom, I had thought I was a thorn bush, Only good for snagging clothes, But if you do not dare to change, You'll never find out you're a rose.

                                         I'm my biggest problem I'm my very last hope My patheticness is humbling I still don't know how to cope My mind is always on the run Yet my body stays forever frozen I always find myself stunned At the paths of which I've chosen My best never seems good enough My best self can't compete Every single day seems tough My worst self is hard to defeat Constantly in a state of depression Even when life's going well It is a different kind of oppression Being trapped in your own personal hell I know things could be worse But things could always be better Thinking I'll only find peace in a hearse Only content when I'm six feet under I think of all the people id leave behind I think about their sadness But if only they could read my mind Witness my mind's madness