Dream Life

                                          Everything. Your highs. Your lows. Your happiest moments and the most painful ones. Your failures and  your success. Your losses and your gains. Just  remember-people can't come in and out of your life for no reason. The lessons you learn and the growth that you experience is never spontaneous. It's always meant to be. There's a higher purpose. A goal. A final destination; or a peal in your journey that you will have no idea of until you reach it. But for that- you need to climb the mountain. For that -you need to look for a deeper meaning . For that you need to pay attention to everything and everyone around you, especially those that love you and leave you. There are some lessons that only pain can bring out. There are some lessons that the biggest joys of your life will reveal to you. And there are some lessons that you never kne...

                                   it takes enormous strength to carry our burdens. but we cannot underestimate the strength it  takes to admit when they have become too heavy. surrender is not weakness. it's knowing when enough is enough. it's feeling and honoring what you have and have not been called to bear. show yourself the same grace that in a fraction of a heartbeat, you would extend to someone else. the last thing we need is a world full of people who are barely hanging on. find some shelter and stay for as long as  your soul requires it. this journey was not meant to be taken without setting your bags down and stopping to rest for awhile.

The passengers on the train are seemingly going to the same destination as you, but based on their belief that the train will get them to their desired destination they will stay on the ride or they will get off somewhere during the trip.           People can and will get off at any stop. Just know that where people get off is more of a reflection on them, than it is on you. There will be a few people in your life that will make the whole trip with you, who believe in you, accept that you are human and that mistakes will be made along the way, and that you will get to your desired destination- together, no matter what.             Be very grateful of these people. They are rare and when you find one, don't let go of them-ever.   Be blessed for the ones who get on at the worst stops when   no one is there. Remember those people, they are special.            Always hold them dear to your heart. ...

 Healing is uncomfortable. It is a long journey. It is upwards and downwards and taking 5 steps forward and 3 step back. It involves tears and pain and lots of struggle-but it gives you so much back. Lessons. Growth. Wisdom. Closure. Healing isn't like the process of an external scar being replaced with new skin. It's more like a broken ceramic glass being glued together with love, lessons and people.  You will heal through broken hearts and healthy relationships. You will heal through jobs and careers and friendships. You will heal as you adventure through life. You will heal as you leave the country, start a new adventure and give up an old love.  You will keep healing and healing. And it probably won't stop even when you're older. You will just get wiser. You will just get stronger. Healing won't act as an anesthetic that makes you numb. Instead, it will bring the pain to you and teach you how to live with it. That's what healing will do.         ...

                                                        The pain will hold on gently As you move throughout your day You'll try to shake it softly But quickly learn it wants to stay It lingers in the corner  It follows you around Juts when you think you've lost it You learn no solace can be found So here's a trick, I've learned a few For me and pain, we're good old friends And pain's afraid of love, you see Because love, it always mends So openup your eyes a bit Inhale deep and strong Look for the twinkle of loves presence That surrounds you all day long It could be here, it could be there A thought, a mile, a gift Look for the love in every moment And your pain will start to shift Just start small, and whynot now Find something good to think of Pain will shy away, you'll see When what you focus on is love And bit by bit , you'll chip away At t...

                                         Life is but a stopping place  A pause in what's to be, A resting place along the road,     To sweet eternity. We all have different journeys, Different paths along the way, We all were meant to learn some things,    But never meant to stay... Our destination is a place, Far greater than we know. For some the journey's quicker, For some the journey's slow. And when the journey finally ends, We'll claim a great reward, And find an everlasting peace, Together with the lord.

                                     i used to believe that decisions were either right or wrong, that we were meant to travel roads where our journey be long. but lately i've been thinking some paths are for short seasons and moving on doesn't mean that we had the wrong reasons. if dreams don't make sense any more, is it wrong to say goodbye? and if lovers end up parting ways, does it mean they were wrong to try? maybe we are too hard on ourselves when we come to a fork in the road. and i think it's time that we stopped carrying our mistakes as a heavy load. you will always wear your decisions, but it is you who chooses how. so wear your past with pride because  it's brought you to where you are now.

                                      i don't know exactly in which breath i broke and in which breath healed. It's all a blur of slow fades and quick unraveling's, gradual growth and sudden revelations, seasons of life overlapped like crossword puzzles, except i had no clues to solve the problems. reality was not quite as black and white but i got here, didn't i? the pen markings are evidence that life is just one big mess of trial and error. i think in a way i am still breaking and still healing and my heart is still working overtime to keep me safe. once it starts it does not stop but my word, i do not want it to. see how i am a little less scared and a little bit stronger and oh, see how i'm doing just fine.

                             One day, you're going to wake up and your heart won't be beating out of your chest for all of the wrong reasons. One day you're going to cook breakfast to your favorite song and you're not going to feel like the walls are closing in on you.  One day you're going to recognize the person looking back at you, because you changed. You survived even when it didn't feel like you were capable of doing so, even when life was confusing and messy and nothing made sense. You fought, you kept going, and that is the single greatest reality of moving forward; that is the incredible outcome of weathering the hardest parts of your journey. Even when it didn't feel like it- you were growing.

                           When tomorrow starts with out me please try to understand that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand The angel said my place was ready In heaven far above and that i would have to leave behind All those i dearly love But when i walked through Heaven's gates I felt so much at home When God looked down and smiled at me, and told me "Welcome Home". So when tomorrow start with out me Don't think we are far apart, for every time you think of me, I'm right there in your heart