Friday afternoon thoughts

 Though im too much depressed and alone right now specially when in afternoon time,  im at office place surrounding by number of people. But what can you do , sometime you become so incapable to control your own thoughts. 

   Weekends make me dull and frustrated, but this is Friday . Around 2 in afternoon i started to count my insecurities toward life. Things im scared to do , specially to be surround by people where i keeps on counting my failures . Start remembering every decision which took me to three steps back in life. That how i turned out to be  loser with zero financial stability , zero planning for future , and moreover no love life .

But thanks to our office policies where on Friday and Saturdays we are allowed to play music with work...

    "Never thought that you could fall for someone like me....."

                         

I'm too optimistic person who can live with positive attitude and at the same time i can make it more beautiful by reminding good moments in dreadful situation . Last from three days im feeling very depressed , specially about this , and when I'm not able to do any kind of productive things. 

This song keep me indulging in reminding that beautiful moments which i had in my past life . Just like any movie scene those moments give me vibes that im not that boring, but it just my lack of potential who cant let this to become my reality.

But that's okay at least i can rejoice moments in this Friday noon... when no one have idea why im feeling so much relaxed  and at the same time blushing little bit. 

    Even in my wildest dream...i didn't become reality of some one

A fairy tale evening when there's raining outside and we were sitting under shade and chain of small fairy lights were blinging just above our head . Those all light chains are taking twist in such a way that its all coming directly from dark sky. 

      This same song was playing on music system and at that time it was so relatable , that every pair ( actually there were three more couple their at same place) can directly relate to this so i was also. I was not aware about that person who was sitting in just front of me. but i was completely in different aura. 

Than restaurant staff arrange candles on every individual table and let me tell you that were aroma candles . That lavender fragrance put me in situation , where I start imaging for proposal scene. If there would be any possibility of my imagination to become true than this would be the best proposal ever. 

A restaurant on bank of river with slow rain droplets and finally fairy lights with music and fragrance. What else you needed to say yes to any person. Actually yes you needed something more. 

The person , who can give you proposal.

 I had every possible scene in my life and that too number of time...like meeting person in truly romantic environment...

Night walk by holding hand on slippery road in  small droplet rain ..

Bike ride in when its raining heavily ...

Sitting and walking alone in dark nights...fairy tale setups but not a one scene turned out to be reality...

I didn't feel we could be together....

   Wait , why this dark night become suddenly so bright and loud. O yes music stops and so that my thoughts too. And please my dear thoughts stop troubling me , i have to work ....